Demons caught up to me

Long day.

A FB post on Monday evening took me by surprise.  Ah, the pros and cons of FB.  It puts you in touch with people you have lost touch with over the years.  Especially those of us that are transient in nature and have friends in far off corners of the world.  It lets you know the good stuff - fun pictures of families and the like.  It also lets you know the bad stuff.

Mondays post was a bad stuff.  And it was from someone I had purposely lost touch with over the years.  Those nasty college years and such.  Trying to find my own ground, my own space.  For all my inappropriate bitchiness at that time I felt I truly had not right to be privy to this sad news.  The loss if a loved one out there for all to see just seemed so personal.  It made my heart break for this old friend of mine.  It brought back childhood memories and dreams for our futures.  What lies ahead of her was never in those dreams.  And I felt so sad.

And then the irony, coincidence, timing of it all made my head implode.  Overnight on Monday a neighbor passed away.  That was the compounding news that awaited me when I arrived at the office yesterday.  There had been an illness so now there is peace but it doesnt make it any less painful or sad.  And again I struggle with my place in it all.  Must be something with my upbringing.  He is a neighbor and a good friend to some of my good friends.  Someone I interacted with when others invited him out.  So I am saddened by the news.  Sad for the family's loss.  Hopeful in their ability to move through this and forward.  But keep my distance in it all.

And so today is only Wednesday.  I sure hope the storms stay away this afternoon so I can get a swim in.