Carb Overload

So I have been watching my carb intake.  Mostly the processed variety with a limit on potatoes and rice as well.  OK they have be close to non-existent.  I have been doing ~ok~ with it.  Definitely keeping it within range.  So yesterday started a bit of an overlaod on the processed carbs.  It was going to be that way but with all the talk of pancakes...  My will power slowly fell by the wayside.  And then there was a box of bagels in the office.  I have done better over the past months and not gone straight for the crazy decadent cinaman sugar encrusted bagel that is more like a pastry.  I had a sesame bagel with some that really did look like a schmear of cream cheese.  Of course it wasnt plain cream cheese it could have been icing it was so sweet.  I gave myself a bit of a reprieve.  Well then the reports I wanted to get done by the time I left yesterday started taking longer than anticipated - or maybe it was that 2 hour CE course right in the middle of the day...  The next thing you know I am having another half of a bagel.  Total comfort eating at this point.  And with comfort eating there is usually lower motivation.  And with lower motivation and a later departure time from the office comes NO desire to go to the gym.  Which I did not do.  And in keeping on the Pankcake Tuesday, Shrove Tuesday, Fat Tuesday band wagon... I decided to treat myself for dinner.  I ended up with a mini Jersey Mike's Super Sub.. yes, that is the one with provolone and 3 types of meats... Mmmm - yummy....  topped off with a glass of wine and some crackers in front of the tele.

Well let me tell you - carb craving overload...  I should stay away from you!!!
Without the exercise and all the other crap now coursing through my system - my night's sleep was HORRIBLE!!!  I tossed and turned some where after 3am (probably closer to 4am) all the way until my alarm went off at 531...  YUCK!  On the flip side I like these observations as they help me put things in perspective on this goal of trying to be healthier.

So now that Shrove Tuesday has passed and Ash Wednesday is here.  It is time to contemplate what to give up.
In previous years I have failed miserably at giving up alcohol.  Not that I am on a big ol' bender or anything like that... but it seems that all social gatherings are around getting together for a glass of wine.  I KNOW there are people out there that have made that decision or had it made for them not to go down this path.  And I have done a good job with it in the past but...  for some reason it is not working these days.  On this note - I have decided to stick to red wine - beer makes me feel nasty bloated and white wine is a bit too sweet these days... and the martinis - that is just trouble and does not need to happen.
I have also given up Facebook.  There were points in time where it felt very compelling to be out there for some voyeuristic reason.  Now however it seems like the main form of communication with people - especially when making plans.  So that wont be happening either.
Given last night's experience I have decided that I am going to use this time to focus more on this bread, pasta, bagel obsession.  It truly is that.  So this will give me added purpose to stay away from them and give me time to focus on how to find healthier alternatives.  i am sure home baked multi grain type breads would be healthier and more satisfying to the cravings.
we shall see

I have lots to do today if I am going to make up for all that training I missed yesterday.