Merry Christmas

wow

after my little rant on holiday stress I never expected today to turn out the way it did...
I have a horrible adrenalin rush at the moment due to stress, pumpkin bread, peanut butter, stress and change....
it has been the weirdest day...
and after all that you know what my thought is.... can I get the office with the window then?
actually my new interior office with the view of Macys and the sunset works rather well for me...

I know I left a lot of the middle out of those comments...
oh well

year end holiday stress

gosh the crazy car service bills have just caught up with me... I hate spending on emergency fund on an emergency...  I know this is the whole reason why I save for an emergency fund.  I know this.  But I still hate it.  I start to obsess that I won't be able to recover the savings and then the thoughts just start to snowball...

UGH!!!

I then start to think about all the things that could fall apart and fall through the cracks... and you know it just goes from there.  I am waiting for a sales bonus from work - that should help.  Unless that falls apart in the process.  And then there is the year-end bonus that could fall apart as well if the sales piece falls apart... You get the picture.

I'd like to think that all of this is a result of PMS - and I wonder where that moon is at - and having to getup tomorrow at approximately 3:30am to get to a meeting by 5:30am...  A meeting that no one will notice is even happening.

deep breaths... a workout would help - I know this..
but I need to just relax and get to sleep...
think I will opt for some tea